Tomorrow we will be boarding that Delta airplane and flying to Rose City, renting a car (how cool *and old!* are we to be able to rent a car?!), and exploring the area! I can't believe this is really happening. We will leave as tenants in my parents basement and hope to come back as renters once again! We have a couple places scheduled and hope that something will work out, but it's so hard to know where we should live or how much we should spend because so much of it depends on where my job is and how much I will be getting paid!
Which, by the way, I have applied to THREE jobs in the Portland area now that my resume looks fantastic, thanks to my beautiful SIL Adrienne. Thanks girl! I am nervous to be applying for new jobs and scared to get them and scared to NOT get them. What if they hate me and never contact me about the job? What if they love me but I totally screw up the interview? What if they love me and my interview is amazing and they want to hire me?! I seriously hate interviews and feel like I'm horrible at them so I've been telling myself that I am AWESOME at interviews and will totally rock them. I'm hoping that if I tell myself that enough, I'll finally believe it and have the confidence needed. Because really, isn't confidence like 75% of the interview?
We got the information about student loans a month or so ago and I started having a panic attack. This is serious stuff. Serious debt. And the worst part? We won't even be getting enough student loan to really cover our costs of living. I think that this school thinks that their students live in a mud puddle and eat dirt because the extra amount of student loan that won't be going towards tuition, books, and fees, will really only cover housing with utilities for the 2 of us. So of course, I am FREAKING OUT. Dustin called the school's financial aid office and they basically said, "your wife just needs to get a job." End of story. My May miscarriage is starting to seem like a blessing in disguise because if I were to be having a baby and NOT working when we move, we wouldn't be able to feed and clothe ourselves, let alone a baby!
Now I know people do this whole "grad school" thing all the time, but I'd really like to know your secrets. PLEASE TELL ME HOW TO SURVIVE. I know we'll be poor, I know they will be "the best years of our lives", and I know that it takes a lot of faith and courage. It's just hard to figure out how it will all logistically work out.
Hopefully one of these jobs I have applied for will work out, but I'm still going to keep looking until I have an offer. I am awesome. I rock interviews. I am an intelligent, well-rounded professional that is going to get a killer job. (self, is this working yet?)
2 comments:
Hey Dear. I totally understand where you're coming from. When Ben was applying to law school and we didn't know how much money we'd have, I had my fair share of freak outs.
Here is what we did and have found that we always have plenty of money. We took out the maxim amount of money you can take per semester, and I work part time (because I'm in school) and we really have plenty of money. We even still go out to eat on the weekend and go on trips in the summer.
Because you get a big sum of money at the beginning of every semester, what we did it get an online ING savings account and "pay" ourselves at the beginning of every month. And I pay all of our bills (car payment, insurance, rent) at the beginning of the month and budget.
Another key is he may want to take classes during the summer (if he can) because then you can get loan money. I freaked out our first summer because I knew Ben couldn't get a job that would pay what we were getting from the loans, so taking classes or internships was the best option and sped things up.
Good luck! Portland is one of my favorite places (I'm going to visit my 2 bffs in 2 weeks)
Let me know if you have any questions and I hope you are able to find a job.
I understand the whole baby thing, we've decided to wait until after school because of finances and time. I really don't want add more stress onto Ben, nor do I want to be a single parent, and I'm trying to finish school myself. So we decided it's best to wait for us.
Let me know if you have any questions! I'm loving your blog!
I hear you. You will make it by paying an honest tithe, serving the Lord, watching the pennies and where they are spent, and trusting in the Lord. Because you sought the Lord and He was part of your thought process for this line of profession, He will be there every step of the way. You are both going to be just fine. Moving away is hard but good. You will LOVE Portland or where ever you live. Good luck!
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