So in August, after I successfully was given my applied promotion, I told the Academy that this would be my last semester teaching.... giving them a 5 MONTHS notice to find a replacement for me. So here we are in January now, 5 months later, the end of the semester approaching next week and I am so excited and so ready to be down to one full time job. And then the dreaded news comes....
I have someone to take over my Thursday classes and someone to take over my Saturday classes but my Wednesday classes have no replacement. And the semester will start again the first week of February... and I am basically just expected to keep teaching until someone magically shows up and is trained... and I am bugged. Very bugged. This is why there was 5 months time to find someone new.
As I just stated in my first paragraph, I AM WORN DOWN. I have become so turned off and shut down towards group teaching which has not been fair for me, my students, or the Academy. Or even my poor wonderful husband who has basically been the sole person to clean our house, do the dishes, make the bed, do the laundry, even make meals. And this was all on top of his 22 credits he had last semester and 12 hours of work. I am so lucky to have the most amazing husband ever. But I don't want him to have to do that. I want to take care of my house, my husband, and myself, heaven forbid if we wanted to have a baby soon and I would want to take care of my child too!
So after being hurt, bugged, and angry, I sent an email. I have to be firm in this. I knew when I gave my 5 months notice that it was the right thing to do. And after sending my email, I felt assured again that it was the right thing to do. I am willing to stay through February because I don't want my students to be stranded teacherless after their hard work. But past February I am MORE than done. I just can't do it anymore. Is it really too much to honor the wishes of an overstressed young married woman who needs to quit? Is there any difference in me quitting because my situation has changed where I am not available for 2 jobs and someone else who is moving? Both cases they are unavailable to teach, yes? It is frustrating and overwhelming.
And here I stand, taking my stand for what I need to do for me. And yet I fear the reaction from the Academy. Of course they're not going to be happy, but I am not happy either. I am anxious and moody and dead. Which is why I need to be firm and stand. Come what may.
3 comments:
I think you are smart, I am the same way where no matter how unconvenient something may be for me, I will just keep being upset about doing it instead of making the other person upset by quitting, but it is not a good way to be. So don't worry about their reaction, you gave them MORE than enough time and are being so great about giving them one more month leeway to figure stuff out. I am sure they can scramble and get another teacher to fill your classes or something, I don't think you should have to be solely responsible for the teacher-after all you are just the teacher (not to minimize what you do) not the owner/manager etc. but I understand how it is when you don't want to abandon your students. I kept teaching piano while I was teaching school (and pregnant with Alli) for mainly this reason-I didn't want to disappoint the students' parents. So stupid, I had soo many other things I needed to be doing. Good luck with that though, it's a very tough situation!
Wow, I don't think I would have even agreed to stay through February, so you're better than me. Five months is oodles of notice. How frustrating, but don't back down!
I am glad you took a stand, sometimes you just have to do that! I hope they are able to find someone for your students!
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